Yu Chiu

FMPL

2010-06-02T09:29:00.001-07:00

Life hasn't been great.Although things slightly improve, many things still left unresolved..Am I being too negative??? I told myself to give up but I cannot.Anyway,I think UT1 SUCKS.I KNOW THERE ARE PEOPLE THERE FOR ME BUT THEY CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH NOW.TALKING TO THEM MAKE ME FEEL SLIGHTLY BETTER BUT AFTERALL I WILL BE UNHAPPY AGAIN SINCE THINGS ARE LEFT UNRESOLVED. SO PLEASE GIVE ME A SOLUTION INSTEAD OF LISTENING TO MY COMPLAINS ONLY.

Unhapy

2010-04-26T21:28:00.000-07:00

Who agrees that one can find happiness and relieve stress by writing in your blog? I know i make a huge mistake but why cannot people give me chance? I know i need to prove them that I can do it..Is not my fault..I just want to have good achievements..why?? Not wrong?? Wrong?? Why? U give me hope and now you want to take it away from me??? Why??? It is really difficult to handle it you know..N my team forever sucks!! Like why cant they just be slightly more serious so I wont be in a bad mood now...I rather go back to the bad and stupid old days..better than now..I am nothing..People dont give me chance.Irritated by many many other factors!!!!!!!

finally

2010-04-16T02:01:00.000-07:00

first day of sch

2010-04-15T01:35:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating the orientation program cause i was really sleepy and have no energy to blog.orientation was great except for day 2 tug a w
ar.Although SAS didnt win any cup,in my heart SAS forever rocks!Today lesson was ok just that my team members not all are contributing.I hope that they were just tired and not lazy.I really want to go university.I will work hard for it!I afraid that i might fail my maths UT and need to re take or just a broader line passer.Maths is my nightmare,i really hope i can do better for this subject!MAths please once again be strong.FIght like how you fought for your O lvl.Once again,i need the strength to go on..

first day at rp

2010-04-12T02:45:00.000-07:00

hi.school was great but at the same time tiring.initially it really bored me out cause the hall was warm and eveyone was in a cstate of confusion.however,things started to get better when the student leader started a cheer.this is how the cheer goes:student leader will shout team 5 oi than we will reply oi.when they shout team 5 sub sub oi,we will shout your mother in a super fierce man
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er than have a short pause b4 saying i love her.it may sound not funny but when one of the sl,josh does it,it was really hilarious!we also learn a cheer for our sas and is really cool if everyone do it tgt.i managed to make some new friends but we arent very close mainly they got their own friends.i am feeling so hungry now cause the lunch was disgusting!i am going to end here.bye!

Short post

2010-02-24T00:40:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone!I have not been blogging for a long time.School starts on 15 april and i am so looking forward to it.Although i got to RP,i believe that i will still love my school and my course.My mum has been nagging for me since after my O level and i really wish to take a break from home!I did not so well for my english last year and have decided to re-take this year for the sake of my future.Wish me good luck!Bye!

Life is confusing

2010-01-22T11:30:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking a lot lately.Life is confusing,sometimes you wanted something so badly but when you got it u may not feel that happy or maybe the happiness is just for a moment.I dont know what i want for life.Sometimes is it better to let things be in the way it is??Just like i wanted pure sciences badly but when i got it eventually i still drop it.I was thinking that if i really gotten what i want and able to go SP,will i be happy and never regret for choosing that path????Is it true that life is about trying and keep trying,one day you will find a solution????I have lots of question but i have not been able to find the answer.I feel that my english is deproving a lot...shucks!!!I realised i can cheat the whole world but not myself...the more i try to cover my feelings,the more i hurts..

Pre O level results post

2010-01-09T05:00:00.000-08:00

I am blogging again afte a long long time.O level results will be out soon on Monday.I am really feeling very sad,confused or what ever cause i somehow feel that i wont do that well for O level.I always told myself that i have already expected that but in fact i still refused to accept it.Afterall,who can accept getting a poor results.I feel really happy these few days as i was able to go all 5 polys but at the same time sad and embarrassed when everyone started asking me how i did for PREM..i told them a not very bad grade like 17 or what but in actual fact i got 33 for LIR5.I realised i can lie to the whole world but not myself.This feeling is especially hurtful and torturing.I finally know what i want and is Nutrition,health and wellness in SP,however,everything is too late.I know i wont be able to get into the course cause the cut off points is rather low and is the only poly which offer this course..I never once get what i really want cause i lack of goal and motivation.I told myself i will make a difference to my poly life.I want to be an happy,cheerful,talkative,out going,confident girl.Even if i have to go nursing course,just accept it and study hard too.N please DONT CRY,STAY STRONG K?

Graduation Day 2009

2009-10-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

Today was our Graduation Day!It was tiring but fun.I managed to take some nice photos with my friends and teachers.Time flies,i still remember the time when i first came to Ngee Ann and for the past four years i did not fruitfully spent my time in relate to both studies and CCA.I really hate Ngee Ann for the past four years cause i always think the school brought me unhappiness and the list goes on.However,today's Graduation Day change my mindset.I realised the school had a lot of joy just that i didn't make it an effort to participate in the activities.And I am glad that my teacher never once give me up no matter how sucky my results were.THANKS and also SORRY.Sorry for the poor results i produced and also for giving up myself.Sorry Chinese,I didn't study hard and i gave up on you.From now on everything starts new,NG YU CHIU BEVERLY IS TAKING 6 SUBJECTS AND NOT 5 CAUSE I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP CHINESE.I shall upload the pictures later.

Time is running out!

2009-09-18T06:02:00.000-07:00

38 DAYS MORE TO O LEVEL.It is equivalent to 5 weeks!GOSSH!!I freaking not prepare and i not i should not said that!!Mr lim talked to as this morning and i feel kind of motivated.I think what he said is very true like if we choose to play computer today or watch television,other people in other school students will be working very hard and going to get thier dist at the end.So i must start right?Got back E MathsPP1 not very happy with it although i passed..cause i think i still going to fail due to PP2.I really hope to pass my Eng,Maths,POA and do slightly beter for Science......

Practical Day

2009-09-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

Today was a tiring day for me.I did 4 practicals in a row!!It first started with Biology which is damm difficult because we had to do drawings!!Everyone can get it except for me and i don't how life will be!!Chemistry practical was time consuming.I am suffering from bad pain now because i think too tired.I am happy that mum cooked bird nest for me and i am going to facial tomorrow!!YEAH!!Just came back from Gym and guess my weight?52.9kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I am so fat!!!!!!Shucks,Wednesday have to go back school again!!

Latest Update for Premlinary

2009-09-02T21:12:00.001-07:00

D=DIE,S=SURVIVE,H-HANGING THERE(May D or S)
English-D
Chinese-D(Already D on 19 August)
Maths-Hanging there(Still got PP2)
Social Studies-SD(SURE DIE)
Chemistry P3-D(Never finish X(
POA-???
Literature-???
Maths PP2-???
Biology-???

The day that i will never be happy

2009-09-02T01:59:00.000-07:00

Today really sucks because i freaking screwed SS.I should not have listen to rumous and just study for Bonding Singapore..Combine Humanities is really falling and i am really sad...suddenly thought about Chinese again...I didn't talk to anyone about the Chinese Premlinary Examination because i feel that i am really giving up.I dont know why i am re-taking the examination with such thinking...I know i should not but i just too sad.....19 August is the day where i feel all the happiness,sadness,excitement ect ect were all gone on that day.The moment when i saw a B3 on the result slip,tears start flowing down from my cheeks.I told myself because i got B3 for chinese hence i should study harder for my rest of the subject..but just as i walk into my room i saw my result slip......C,D,E,F...brought me back to that moment again.....

Moodless

2009-08-20T05:32:00.000-07:00

I am feeling really down...because of my chinese.......i can't smile and tell myself it is ok as long as i have given in my best...and i still have a chance to get A......i am upset because of chinese results but this A means more than just a grade........i dun think anyone can understand me now...because they can only think that i am sad because i didn't get an A....yet i am sad partly because of this but not fully.....i don't know if i should tell leonard about it so that he can help me........i am emoing these days and i finally understand how it feels.......i don't know if i should lock up this blog and re-open it when i can finally get over it.........

No mattter what..

2009-08-19T02:22:00.000-07:00

Firstly,i have to say sorry to those who have expectated me to get A..I believe everyone including myself are very disappointed with my results...I have to re-take the examination...i don't really care if i got A the next time round but i tell myself because i got B3 for chinese thus i have to work doubly hard for the rest of the subjects..Feeling really sad because i feel that i am left all alone...Hui Ling and Hui Shan both get A1 and 2 respectivitely..so congrates to them....really feeling upset but....life still goes on........

2 days mc

2009-08-17T02:22:00.000-07:00

Life has been great without school!However,O level is coming soon and really have to buck up!!Grew fatter these few days although i am sick.Maybe because i ate too much.So many things happen within a short weekend.My grandfather passed away and i didn't have the chance to see him because i am sick!Really hope to recover by tomorrow..Alot of people is either closing their blogs or switching to livejournal.I am thinking of switching to livejournal but not so soon.Maybe until i got a new email and when i am less busy(maybe after O level).Mum cooked barley and it really sucks without sugar.But healthier so no choice have to bear with it..Wednesday getting back results and really hope to achieve an A.I know sometimes it is not we put in a lot of effort and we will get results.Just like the presentation..i put in a lot effort to do...and yet it didn't meet my expectation..Well is all over and i don't want to be affected by it anymore.Just hope for the best on Wednesday.

Happy National Day

2009-08-09T00:55:00.000-07:00

I have not been online for 2 days because it had been both tiring and busy days for me.Let start from Friday,we had fiesta and it was much better than last year but can never win 2R1'07 Fiesta.After Fiesta,i had a dental appointment.It was good but expensive.I went home quite late by that time so had a short nap before going to tuition.Saturday-Woke up at 8 to attend David's brother wedding.It is a new experience for me because i have never been to a church wedding.After the ceremony,we went to clark quay and heeded home.After a short rest,we went to novena with AK and Eun.At around 7.30,i went home but to find out that the house door was locked and i couldn't go in.Mum brought me out and around 10.30,dad came to fetch me and i reached home very late.Therefore,it is quite obvious that i didn't study..Yet..Today,wasted the whole afternoon watching Forensic Heroes.The story i am watching now is about this girl who is both pretty and capable got accused in killing a bimbo.Now i have understand being pretty and smart is important rather than just pretty.The story really show how slut those pretty girls after rich men.While the smart and pretty earns a lot each month and yet those bimbos have to be under her.Next week we will be getting back Chinese,i will forget about it.Who cares right?What is done is done.I have a lot more things to worry for rather than just a Chinese O level which i can do nothing to it.

My leg hurts..

2009-08-04T04:49:00.000-07:00

My leg still hurts a lot.I think it is due to yesterday PE.I never do proper streching than started running.The pain will be over soon yet some pain is eternity.Next tuesday or wednesday getting back Chinese O level.I won't be able to get an A.Actually i have all the long aiming for A1 but i know i won't get it.A2 will be very very difficult.I freaking screwed my oral plus listening comprehension.We are going to celebrate National Day on Friday.Hopefully this will be the last year...I don't know why just keep thinking negative these few days.Saturday will be ZH brother's wedding.I really don't want to go but no choice...After the wedding,my cousin got chalet and so she invited us to go.However,i don't know if i should go a not because is go there play or study??

My class is crazy

2009-07-31T05:43:00.000-07:00

Today was the last fiday test!!I am happy but i know that O level is not over so cannot start playing.,Sad.It will soon be over and i jsut have to bear with it.While waiting for the test this afternoon,we were scaring each other.I know it is very lame because sec4 already right?But i don't care must enjoy our last year in NAS.After the test,Jessie,YP and me suddenly talk about Chinese O level.I know is all over there is no point talking about it.I really wish i could forget how badly i have perfomed during the examination.I really wish to tell myself that is not O level afterall.However,the fact is a fact.I can't change it.I wish to tell myself that i am dreaming but in fact i am not.My mind is very clear now and i know every single details that i have did for my O level.We got back POA test today and i am really unhappy about it.Social Studies sucks even more because i have no time to finish!I going to fail again.I just hope to do better for E Lit which i doubt so.

I am feeling bad..

2009-07-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

Sorry,i was really tired today and couldn't focus on your lesson.I will really work harder for my maths...Today,ms farhana didn't come so mrs lim took over her lesson.I was doing Englsih and Mrs Lim thought i was doing Chemistry.
Mrs Lim:Do you need help?
YC:No,i am doing English
Mrs Lim:Do Chemistry(kind of "bang" me)
Yc:ok ok,the lesson i will do Chemistry
HAHA.Mrs Lim is so funny although her lessons are quite boring sometimes but i really enjoy it most of the time.Have to study Social Studies.Really hope to do well!

Time is running out!

2009-07-27T04:03:00.000-07:00

O level is coming and so i cannot play anymore.My maths really sucks!I really have to work hard for it or else i won't be able to get into any poly courses.Today,TP came down to our school and gave us a talk.I am still unsure of where i want to go but the most important thing is I MUST GET GOOD RESULTS!Really scared..i feel that chinese no hope already.I am not nervous but i really hope the day will never come.I am sick and tired of chinese but i know i must do it again.I really regret for not giving in my best during that few days..I was rather shock that joyce told me she dropping to sub-sci.Now have more competitors already!Really no mattter what must focus!Go and eat dinner and start chiong POA!

If you want to move on,you must first learn to let go.

2009-07-22T06:26:00.000-07:00

Chinese O level is finally over.I really want to forget about it.Friday there will be E Maths and Biology test.I haven't study for it..sure do this quiz in blo

1. How old are you?
Turn 16 on 4 Nov

2. Are you single??
Yes

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
Not sure

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
I am still single

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Someone who loves and me i love him too.

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
Cousin

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
Beach!!

8.Where do you want to go for honeymoon?
Australia

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Families and friends

10. Will that include your exes?
Depends

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
Not sure.

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Morning.So can enjoy longer.

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
Sweet and blissful music

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon, fork and knife?
Fine dining

15. Champagne or red wine?
Champagne

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
A few days later.Need to pack first.

17. Money or household items?
Money

18. How many kids would you like to have?
2.Hope to have 1 boy and 1 girl

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
Definitely

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
No one actually.

The more i try to forget,i remember it more clearly

2009-07-17T21:53:00.000-07:00

I really want to forget how badly i did for my chinese o level but i can't.Maybe because the impact is so great.I really wish i could tell myself it is ok as long as i have give in my best.Results have been bad.I have been underperforming these days.Really hope to pass SS because to me i only have hope in chinese and combine humanities.I have lose my distiction for chinese..no pure sciences..maths sucks..english also sucks..Combine humanities??I really don't know but just hope i will do better for it.Some people is just so freaking irritating and she can just give people tips-$3.40.Not that i am being stingy but now economic downturn.Of course must save money.

New start

2009-07-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

I have decided to forgive some people.DOn't ask me why because i don't see the need to explain.I screwed my Chinese oral.I am screwed.I screwed everything.All these feelings tell me that i will miss my distinction!!