| I am blogging again afte a long long time.O level results will be out soon on Monday.I am really feeling very sad,confused or what ever cause i somehow feel that i wont do that well for O level.I always told myself that i have already expected that but in fact i still refused to accept it.Afterall,who can accept getting a poor results.I feel really happy these few days as i was able to go all 5 polys but at the same time sad and embarrassed when everyone started asking me how i did for PREM..i told them a not very bad grade like 17 or what but in actual fact i got 33 for LIR5.I realised i can lie to the whole world but not myself.This feeling is especially hurtful and torturing.I finally know what i want and is Nutrition,health and wellness in SP,however,everything is too late.I know i wont be able to get into the course cause the cut off points is rather low and is the only poly which offer this course..I never once get what i really want cause i lack of goal and motivation.I told myself i will make a difference to my poly life.I want to be an happy,cheerful,talkative,out going,confident girl.Even if i have to go nursing course,just accept it and study hard too.N please DONT CRY,STAY STRONG K? |
